The Story of Us, Part 4

Part Four: Never gonna leave this bed...

We went back to my house and I told him to wait in the living room while I did a little tidy up of my bedroom. When I was done I went back downstairs and told him he could come up. I put a movie on, but to be honest I don't remember what movie it was. Now, I had mentally told myself earlier on that I was not going to sleep with him on the first night, but after kissing in my bed for a bit things got intense, and we ended up making love that night, twice. That was the first time I had really made love, of course I had had sex in the past, but this was so different. Here he was on top of me looking at me, talking to me, saying everything I wanted to hear and things I never expected to hear, and getting me off at the same time. He was definitely the best lover I had ever had. The baby talk started that very night, and he never stopped talking about us getting pregnant until I actually got pregnant. That night I had told him “how amazing would it be if we got pregnant just like THAT after me being in 2 serious relationships where I was never able to get pregnant, and in the last relationship,with Brian, we gave it a pretty valiant effort.” and he kissed me and said “you mean pregnant with my baby” and kissed me again, and I said “yeah”, before I could finish my response his lips were on mine. And that was when we made love for the second time. DJ fell asleep shortly after and was lightly snoring, I felt at peace and more happy than I had felt in a long time. I slept like a baby that night.

The next morning I woke up next to DJ, and had a huge grin on my face. I was happier than I could ever remember myself being. We got up and went to Bowmanville to see his Mom, of course I didn't realize that until we parked outside of her house and he said “let me see if my Moms up”. I was a bit nervous, DJ told her all about how we met and our history and she joked that I must be a “witch”. DJ had no clean clothes at his Moms so we went over to Winners and he got some clothes, then we went back to his Moms, he showered and got dressed and we went to get lunch at a little pub in Bowmanville.

(The Next Morning...)









He introduced me to deep fried pickles, and we talked about everything. We spent the rest of the afternoon at my house drinking with my Mom and her boyfriend, allowing them to get to know DJ a bit better. Everything was perfect. I knew I was falling pretty hard for DJ, and I was making sure not to let it show too much. We talked a lot about fate and destiny and that he had never believed in God or a higher power until the day I came into his life. Saturday DJ dragged himself to work, it would be the first time we would be apart since we met again 4 days before. I planned a nice steak dinner for him coming home from work and was pretty excited. DJ came home and brought a friend, Justin, and informed me that he was going up to the cottage for the night, but was going to stay for dinner since I went out of my way and had already planned it. We ate dinner together, and DJ could tell I was a bit annoyed and kept asking if I was ok. I didn't let it get to me, he needed boy time, I would give it to him. They left around 6:30 and I told Justin that DJ better come back in one piece, I told them both to have a good time and kissed DJ goodbye. At about 12:30am, I was in bed, just about to fall asleep when the phone rang, it was DJ. He said he was on his way home, that he had to bring Justin home still, but he was going to pick me up first, So I could go for the drive with him. I get out of bed and get dressed, and wait for him in the living room downstairs. He walks through the front door and I can feel my whole body is excited. My heart is racing. I missed him a lot. He kisses me and tells me he missed me too much and just wanted to be laying in bed next to me, I swoon, obviously. We drove to Cobourg, which is about an hour long drive, to drop Justin off and drove right back home. We listened to music and talked a bit. I could tell he was tired and so was I, I couldn't wait to get home and lay in bed next to him. Once we got home, DJ had a quick shower and came right to bed. We made love and fell asleep next to each other. Sunday morning we went to the flea market and then to his sisters place and had dinner with his sister, his mom and his niece and nephew. DJ and I decided that we were going to make mix CDs for each other, so we went back to my house to get my laptop then went back to his moms in Bowmanville where we were going to spend the night. By the time we got back to Bowmanville, and all settled in at his Moms, we were both pretty tired and ended up just watching a movie and heading to bed. But of course, we made love again that night. Monday morning we got up early because DJ had to go to work, he was grumpy, because he didn't want to go. We had been kind of living in our own world for a few days there, and DJ hadn't been to work since Wednesday. I think we both had a little bit of separation anxiety that day. DJ came home from work and we got a bottle of wine and sat and talked as we drank our red wine. The next day, DJ had to go pick up some things from his exes place, as she was threatening to sell it all. He took his sister and his brother there with him and collected a lot of his things. His ex was not very nice to him and it took its toll on him. I was feeling a little insecure that day, and I didn't know what had happened at his exes. His sister text me and asked to let her know when DJ got to my place. DJ arrived and was acting strange, he asked me if we could go for coffee before he came in, I said sure, and we went to Tim Hortons and grabbed a coffee and he just needed a vent, I half expected him to end things with me, because of his ex and his son. He told me had something he really needed to tell me but he was going to wait til later to tell me. Later that evening, after we had dinner together and just hung out talking, we were in bed making love when he stopped and looked at me and said “I love you so much.” and I leaned up to him and kissed him and said “i love you too” with a big smile on my face. In that moment I knew that he was everything to me, no one had ever made me feel so complete in my life. I guess that was the day he moved in officially.

The Story of Us, Part 3!

Part Three: "I know you!", First Date


I opened the message from DJ on POF to see he had written “Let's Party!”, if you had seen my POF profile, you'd understand, I was all about going out and having a good time at the bar back then. I laughed, and replied “What did you have in mind? Is your name Dustin W*******?” , DJ says his eyes nearly jumped out of his head when he seen that message, he replied “Ya. How do you know me?”. I replied telling him about the bowling alley 10 years ago, and going to his grandparents cottage. We sent a few more messages back and forth and he asked if he could call me, of course I said yes and gave him my number, he called me 10 minutes later and we talked for over an hour. He asked if I wanted to get together the following day when he got off of work and go for a drink and catch up, as he really wanted to see me. And of course I said yes. Before we said our goodbyes on the phone he told me he would probably text me all day the following day because he wouldn't be able to think about anything else. He said it felt like Christmas Eve. I hung up the phone and laid back in bed and got a text from him “Night baby.” and I smiled. I was hooked already. The next day I tried to sleep in as late as possible so I would just have time to get myself ready and no time to be nervous. He called me around 2:30 and said he was leaving work and just going to shower and get ready and he would call me on his way. I had to finish getting ready fast. I was so nervous I needed to have a drink, I opened a beer and then heard and saw a truck drive behind the house, I knew It was him. A minute later there was a knock at the door. I opened the door, and there he was, I could not contain myself and I smiled at him, and asked him if he wanted to come in for a drink before we went out, he said sure, and came in and sat in the dining room with my mom and I. He says when I opened the door to him he thought to himself “that's my girl right there”.

I thought it was a good idea that DJ come in and sit with me and my mom while we had a drink, just to break the ice a little. We hadn't seen each other in 10 years and I didn't know how much we'd have to talk about. When we were ready to leave he told me to bring a jacket just in case I got cool. I got in his truck for the first time, and I was really nervous. My hands were shaking a little bit and I was waiting for him to say something. As we were leaving my house he told me that it was a good idea inviting him in so we could kind of break the ice a little bit, we were on the same page, I was happy.

DJ took me to a quiet little restaurant/bar called Bobby C's in Bowmanville, right on the water. We talked for hours, we actually ended up sitting there until they closed at about 9. He told me about everything I had missed in his life over the past 10 years. He had a 5 year old son now, named Dominic, when I asked if there was any baby mama drama, he said no, I would find out about a week later how untrue that actually was. He told me he felt lucky that day and was definitely buying a lottery ticket. He tipped the waitress generously and told her to buy herself a lottery ticket. After we left Bobby C's he surprised me by taking me over to his sisters house and he gave her the whole history of how we met and met again. Then we went to the beach in Newcastle and looked at the stars and moon, we paced around in the same area for awhile, my feet were starting to get cold and his recommendation that I bring a jacket came in handy, and I could feel that DJ wanted to kiss me, I knew it was going to happen. Then it did. And I have never wanted to kiss anyone else from that moment on. When he stopped kissing me, I was anxious for him to kiss me again. All I wanted to do the rest of the night was kiss him, I was sure of this. We got in the truck and we were both quiet, I asked him what was on his mind and he said that he wanted to kiss me again and I told him to kiss me then. Things we're getting hot and heavy and I suggested we go back to my house and watch a movie or something. He was happy with my idea and we headed back to my place. I couldn't stop staring at him as we drove, he was a different person than the one I met so long ago, but he was a man now, still incredibly gorgeous, with these amazing facial features, but there was more to it than that. I was developing a feeling I had never felt before, for someone I have known for 10 years but only just met.

The Story of Us Part 2!

Part Two: The History, Summer 2002

DJ and I met originally in May 2002, 10 years ago in Lindsay, Ontario, where my family had a summer trailer, and where DJ was living at the time. He was 18, I was 13 going on 14. Naturally when I met him I lied about my age, I must have said I was 15 or 16. He introduced himself as Dustin, not DJ, even though his family calls him DJ. He was beautiful. He stood 5'9” , short dark brown hair, and beautiful green, almost turquoise eyes. To this day I can't remember what he would have said to me in the first place to get my attention, but whatever it was must have worked because we did end up kissing in an alley beside the bowling alley. We exchanged numbers, I remember that he wrote his on the corner of a lined sheet of paper. We must have talked on the phone a number of times and he even wrote me a few letters and sent me a picture of himself, before we lost touch. In July we ended up reconnecting just through a matter of fate. I ended up meeting his brother Darryl randomly when him and his friends were camping on Goat Island across the lake from our trailer park, my friend and I had taken a trip on the paddle boat across the water and the guys their ended up coaxing us towards the island and chatted with us for a little bit. Later in the evening they came over to our side of the water in their boat, that's when I met Darryl and out of curiosity asked if he knew anyone named Dustin W********, Lindsay is a small town, so I thought the odds were pretty good, and he said “DJ! That's my brother!”, I didn't think the odds were THAT good! I told him that we had met a few months back but lost touch, so he offered to give DJ a call and we walked up to the payphone and Darryl called him and told him he was standing there with “this girl who said she knew you, named Natasha”, and then Darryl handed me the phone and walked away. DJ and I talked for a bit and made plans to get together the following day, he was going to pick me up with his grandpa and my step sister would chaperone. He picked me up early the next morning, and we drove to his grandparents in Bobcaygeon. We went swimming and canoeing and had lunch together. We just had a good time together. Then that was the last time I saw DJ. We had written each other letters, and called each other, but I remember going to PEI that summer for a couple weeks and that probably had something to do with us not being able to keep in touch, and by the time I had come back from PEI, DJs family moved to Port Hope. Over the next 10 years I would think about DJ often, not as often as every day or every week, but at least once a month, I guess sometimes more, because whenever I would pass “Bloor Railings” I would think of him, because at the time he was working with his (Step) Dad there. And for about a year I would pass there every day because I went to a high school right around the corner. I searched for him on facebook a couple times and never found anything, until about late 2011, when I stumbled upon him through a facebook high school page. But he wasn't there as DJ W******* he was there as DJ La*****. I sent him a message but never got one back. In April 2010 I even went as far as emailing Bloor Railings just to see if everything was okay with him, I had been thinking about him a lot at that time. But I never heard anything.



Stay tuned for more, trying to post these little excerpts every 2 or 3 days

The Current Me... Part One of The Story of Us

I should bid myself a Welcome back... It's been a few years since I have written a blog post. A lot has changed, as they do over the course of about 2 years. As things have changed so much I started writing a novel, about my life, as of recently and a bit touching on the past, it's still a work in progress, and to be honest I haven't touched it in a few months. Hopefully this will re-inspire me to write more, as the story, in real life, has progressed more.

I have titled the work in progress as "The Story of Us", as it seems fitting, as I was writing it for the father of my unborn daughter. Maybe one she will get to read it too, and know that there's such thing in true love, whether or not it all works out in the end...? well, i'm still waiting to find out for myself.

I guess I will post this in parts, this is

PART ONE:

In January 2012 I was going through a lot of changes in my life. I had been in a long distance relationship with Brian for two years, and we still weren't living in the same country. I was getting frustrated, and my eye began to wander. That's when I met Ben. I was at the pub with a girl friend of mine and I had gone out for a smoke by myself. I was on the patio when I started to hear someone call my name, and as you do when you are in a crowded place, you look around, and saw this girl across the patio looking at me, she walked over and introduced herself, her name was Amanda, and told me that we had been friends on facebook when I accidentally added her thinking she was someone else, but ended up keeping her on facebook anyways. After chatting for a few minutes she directs a friend of hers over, her friend being Ben. The first thing I noticed about him was his english accent. I had been to the UK a couple of times so I was familiar with the areas, so I asked him where he was from and just carried on casual small talk. My girlfriend Christina and I ended up having a drink with them and we've been friends ever since .

(Brian and I during happier times)

(Ben and I back in March)


I started spending a lot of time with Ben, we got pretty close as we have a lot of the same interests, we'd hang out, drink, and listen to music. All while I was still in a relationship with Brian. Brian came to visit near the end of January and things just didn't feel the same between us anymore. I knew in my heart I was beginning to have feelings for Ben. So as Ben and I got closer over the next couple months, things with Brian and I were getting worse. We were fighting all the time as I was going out all the time and wasn't really making time for him anymore, and when we did speak all he ever went on about was his financial situation, there just wasn't that spark anymore. In mid March Brian and I decided we were going to take a break, I knew the inevitable was that we weren’t going to be together anymore. This is when I put my heart on the line and told Ben how I was feeling. I had been sleeping over there quite a bit, and more recently in the same bed. Nothing ever happened between us, even though I had wished it would. I could almost feel that Ben was falling for me too, and so could his friend Amanda. Once I told Ben how I felt he wanted to take his time to think about things, but he never got the chance to tell me what he felt. We always talked about talking about it, but never did, and things weren't different between us as friends, which I was grateful for, because he had become one of my best friends.

As I grew impatient for Ben to tell me his feelings, I decided to use POF, an online dating site, I wasn't looking for anything serious just people to talk to. That's when DJ came into my life... again. I was laying in bed one Tuesday night, bored, on the computer, and I had my POF open. I noticed I had a new message so I clicked on the link and couldn't believe my eyes. I hadn't seen DJ in about 10 years, so I don't know how I recognized him right away, but I did, instantaneously, my heart was racing.

(The picture I seen of DJ on his POF profile and just KNEW it was him...how did I know? I wish I could show you him 10 years ago, so different, but I just KNEW)


Stay tuned to read more...