The Story of Us Part 2!

Part Two: The History, Summer 2002

DJ and I met originally in May 2002, 10 years ago in Lindsay, Ontario, where my family had a summer trailer, and where DJ was living at the time. He was 18, I was 13 going on 14. Naturally when I met him I lied about my age, I must have said I was 15 or 16. He introduced himself as Dustin, not DJ, even though his family calls him DJ. He was beautiful. He stood 5'9” , short dark brown hair, and beautiful green, almost turquoise eyes. To this day I can't remember what he would have said to me in the first place to get my attention, but whatever it was must have worked because we did end up kissing in an alley beside the bowling alley. We exchanged numbers, I remember that he wrote his on the corner of a lined sheet of paper. We must have talked on the phone a number of times and he even wrote me a few letters and sent me a picture of himself, before we lost touch. In July we ended up reconnecting just through a matter of fate. I ended up meeting his brother Darryl randomly when him and his friends were camping on Goat Island across the lake from our trailer park, my friend and I had taken a trip on the paddle boat across the water and the guys their ended up coaxing us towards the island and chatted with us for a little bit. Later in the evening they came over to our side of the water in their boat, that's when I met Darryl and out of curiosity asked if he knew anyone named Dustin W********, Lindsay is a small town, so I thought the odds were pretty good, and he said “DJ! That's my brother!”, I didn't think the odds were THAT good! I told him that we had met a few months back but lost touch, so he offered to give DJ a call and we walked up to the payphone and Darryl called him and told him he was standing there with “this girl who said she knew you, named Natasha”, and then Darryl handed me the phone and walked away. DJ and I talked for a bit and made plans to get together the following day, he was going to pick me up with his grandpa and my step sister would chaperone. He picked me up early the next morning, and we drove to his grandparents in Bobcaygeon. We went swimming and canoeing and had lunch together. We just had a good time together. Then that was the last time I saw DJ. We had written each other letters, and called each other, but I remember going to PEI that summer for a couple weeks and that probably had something to do with us not being able to keep in touch, and by the time I had come back from PEI, DJs family moved to Port Hope. Over the next 10 years I would think about DJ often, not as often as every day or every week, but at least once a month, I guess sometimes more, because whenever I would pass “Bloor Railings” I would think of him, because at the time he was working with his (Step) Dad there. And for about a year I would pass there every day because I went to a high school right around the corner. I searched for him on facebook a couple times and never found anything, until about late 2011, when I stumbled upon him through a facebook high school page. But he wasn't there as DJ W******* he was there as DJ La*****. I sent him a message but never got one back. In April 2010 I even went as far as emailing Bloor Railings just to see if everything was okay with him, I had been thinking about him a lot at that time. But I never heard anything.



Stay tuned for more, trying to post these little excerpts every 2 or 3 days

The Current Me... Part One of The Story of Us

I should bid myself a Welcome back... It's been a few years since I have written a blog post. A lot has changed, as they do over the course of about 2 years. As things have changed so much I started writing a novel, about my life, as of recently and a bit touching on the past, it's still a work in progress, and to be honest I haven't touched it in a few months. Hopefully this will re-inspire me to write more, as the story, in real life, has progressed more.

I have titled the work in progress as "The Story of Us", as it seems fitting, as I was writing it for the father of my unborn daughter. Maybe one she will get to read it too, and know that there's such thing in true love, whether or not it all works out in the end...? well, i'm still waiting to find out for myself.

I guess I will post this in parts, this is

PART ONE:

In January 2012 I was going through a lot of changes in my life. I had been in a long distance relationship with Brian for two years, and we still weren't living in the same country. I was getting frustrated, and my eye began to wander. That's when I met Ben. I was at the pub with a girl friend of mine and I had gone out for a smoke by myself. I was on the patio when I started to hear someone call my name, and as you do when you are in a crowded place, you look around, and saw this girl across the patio looking at me, she walked over and introduced herself, her name was Amanda, and told me that we had been friends on facebook when I accidentally added her thinking she was someone else, but ended up keeping her on facebook anyways. After chatting for a few minutes she directs a friend of hers over, her friend being Ben. The first thing I noticed about him was his english accent. I had been to the UK a couple of times so I was familiar with the areas, so I asked him where he was from and just carried on casual small talk. My girlfriend Christina and I ended up having a drink with them and we've been friends ever since .

(Brian and I during happier times)

(Ben and I back in March)


I started spending a lot of time with Ben, we got pretty close as we have a lot of the same interests, we'd hang out, drink, and listen to music. All while I was still in a relationship with Brian. Brian came to visit near the end of January and things just didn't feel the same between us anymore. I knew in my heart I was beginning to have feelings for Ben. So as Ben and I got closer over the next couple months, things with Brian and I were getting worse. We were fighting all the time as I was going out all the time and wasn't really making time for him anymore, and when we did speak all he ever went on about was his financial situation, there just wasn't that spark anymore. In mid March Brian and I decided we were going to take a break, I knew the inevitable was that we weren’t going to be together anymore. This is when I put my heart on the line and told Ben how I was feeling. I had been sleeping over there quite a bit, and more recently in the same bed. Nothing ever happened between us, even though I had wished it would. I could almost feel that Ben was falling for me too, and so could his friend Amanda. Once I told Ben how I felt he wanted to take his time to think about things, but he never got the chance to tell me what he felt. We always talked about talking about it, but never did, and things weren't different between us as friends, which I was grateful for, because he had become one of my best friends.

As I grew impatient for Ben to tell me his feelings, I decided to use POF, an online dating site, I wasn't looking for anything serious just people to talk to. That's when DJ came into my life... again. I was laying in bed one Tuesday night, bored, on the computer, and I had my POF open. I noticed I had a new message so I clicked on the link and couldn't believe my eyes. I hadn't seen DJ in about 10 years, so I don't know how I recognized him right away, but I did, instantaneously, my heart was racing.

(The picture I seen of DJ on his POF profile and just KNEW it was him...how did I know? I wish I could show you him 10 years ago, so different, but I just KNEW)


Stay tuned to read more...

The Only Way Is Essex - New TV obsession...

The Brits answer to The Hills...




This show is amazing... I love the british lifestyle and this show is addicting!
This is part 1 of the first episode!

Fave Song of the Moment: Fit But You Know It

(Lyrics)

[intro]

Excuse me girl

I know it's a bit embarrassing but

I just noticed some tan lines

On your shirt

See I reckon you're about an 8 or a 9,

Maybe even 9 and a half in four beers time.

That blue top shop top you've got on IS nice,

Bit too much fake tan though - but yeah you score high.

But there's just one little thing that really really,

Really really annoying me about you you see,

Yeah yeah like I said you are really fit

But my gosh don't you just know it

I'm not trying to pull you

Even though I would like to

I think you are really fit

You're fit But my gosh don't you know it

So when I looked at you standing there with your hoard,

I was waiting in the queue looking at the board

Wondering whether to have a Burger or chips

Or what the shrapnel in my back pocket could afford

When I noticed out the corner of my eye

Looking toward my direction

Your eyes locked onto my course

I couldn't concentrate on what I wanted to order,

Which cost me my place in the queue I waited for YEAH

I'm not trying to pull you

Even though I would like to

I think you are really fit

You're fit but my gosh don't you know it

Whoa! Leave it out

Are you smoking crack or something?

Leave it Out

Mike just leave it just leave it

We cannot have that behaviour in this establishment

S'not worth it mike, just leave it

Don't Touch Me, S'not Worth It

Don't Touch Me, D, Look I'm Alright

Don't Touch me

For a while there I was thinking - yeah but what if?

Picturing myself pulling with bare white hot wit

Snaring you as you were standing there opposite

Whether or not you knew it I swear you didn't tick

And when that bloke in the white behind us lot queuing

Was clocking onto you too yeah I had to admit

That yeah yeah you are fit,

And yeah I do want it,

But I stop sharking for a minute to get chips and drinks

I'm not trying to pull you

Even though I would like to

I think you are really fit

You're fit But my gosh don't you know it

Now, I bashed my head hard earlier choosing a brew.

But I am digressing slightly so I'll continue.

I didn't want to bowl over all geezer and rude,

Not rude like good but just rude like uncouth,

You girls think you can just flirt and it comes to you,

But let me tell you, see, yes, yes, but you are really rude,

And rude as in good, I knew this as you stood and queued,

But I just did not want to give the satisfaction to you!

I'm not trying to pull you

Even though I would like to

I think you are really fit

You're fit But my gosh don't you know it

Oy, just as you started to make your big advance

With the milkshake and that little donut in hand

I was like nah, I can't, even though you look grand

But you look sharp there smiling hard suggesting and

Gleaming away with your hearty hearty looking tan

But I admit the next bit was spanner to my plan

You walked towards my path but just brushed right past

And into the arms of that fucking white shirted man

I'm not trying to pull you

Even though I would like to

I think you are really fit

You're fit But my gosh don't you know it

What do I give a fuck.. I've got a girlfirend anyway

(whoa, we've all had a drink mate)

We're all a bit drunk, yeah we've had a few fair play

I got this stella I bombed from that last café

This nights not even begun, yes yes oh yay

I did fancy you a bit though yeah I must say

I would rather I hadn't mugged myself on display

But this is just another case of female stopping play

On otherwise a total result of a holiday

I'm not trying to pull you

Even though I would like to

I think you are really fit

You're fit But my gosh don't you know it

[outro]

Ha ha huh huh huh

You're fit but you know it

You're fit but you know it

You're fit but you know it

I think I'm going to fall over

I think I'm going to fall

Fucking hell

HAIR!

Getting my hair done at the end of the month.... these are the ideas I am coming up with...

Length:
24" Extensions...I miss mine, and after seeing Makeupbymel's hair...it's time to get back into it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

LOVE THE LENGTH!

Colour:
I was looking through the Victoria's Secret catalogue the other day and came across a photo of adriana lima and i absolutely loved the colour she had going on...

LOVE HER!

Christmas Wish List

That time of the year is coming and this is what I'm lusting after...

Michael Kors Two toned watch Crystal and Rose

Urban Decay Naked Palette

Gucci Guilty Perfume

Taylor Swift Concert Ticks (not on Sale yet...)

Last but certainly not least, Louise Vuitton Speedy 35.

Mean - Taylor Swift

"Mean"

You, with your words like knives
And swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again
Got me feeling like a nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard
Calling me out when I'm wounded
You picking on the weaker man

Well you can take me down with just one single blow
but you don't know, what you don't know...

Someday I'll be living in a big ol' city
And all you're ever going to be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever going to be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your switching sides
And your wildfire lies and your humiliation
You have pointed out my flaws again
As if I don't already see them
I walk with my head down
Trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again

I bet you got pushed around
Somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now
Cause you can't lead me down that road
And you don't know, what you don't know...

Someday I'll be living in a big ol' city
And all you're ever going to be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever going to be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?

And I can see you years from now in a bar
Talking over a football game
With that same big loud opinion
But nobody's listening
Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things
Drunk and grumbling on about how I can't sing
But all you are is mean

All you are is mean
And a liar, and pathetic, and alone in life
And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean

But someday I'll be living in a big ol' city
And all you're ever going to be is mean, yeah yeah
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever going to be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?

Someday I'll be living in a big ol' city
And all you're ever going to be is mean, yeah yeah
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever going to be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?